Welcome to my website and very first blog post!
If you’re looking for a blog that is perfect in structure, grammer (did I even spell that right?) or consistency of content, let me just inform you now…. it’s highly probable you will be unhappy with this one.
I’ve recently published my first book, and after nearly two years of rewrites, corrections, major overhauls, tears, anxiety, and frustration, I really believed that the final send off would result in an amazingly good feeling. (Actually the final send off took place around 2 am so I was too exhausted to even know how I was feeling.)
But, as I woke the next morning – my first thought was- it’s done. Then I prepared myself for that amazingly good feeling. Ok, I’m ready now, bring it on I thought. But much to my surprise, I felt sadness.
I miss writing filled my heart and mind. Now I’m no longer a sad person (used to be, but I’m saving that for another day) in fact I’ve discovered that my joy and positive outlook has the potential to frustrate people who are working really hard to stay unhappy- so this feeling caught me by surprise.
It was then that it dawned on me that I might actually be a REAL writer.
So that’s a pretty long lead up to the explanation as to why this blog is not going to be perfect in structure, grammer (did I even spell that right?) or consistency. That morning I realized that I need to write every day, even if it’s only a paragraph. And if it has to be perfect, well then – it just won’t happen.
So to Emily my amazing editor and Ann my very talented proof reader – although I would love for you to follow this blog, I will completely understand if you feel the need to look away.
Earlier this week, as I entered my friend Carol’s office for my frequent prodding to get this site live, she pulled up the home page and showed me the magic her daughter Sarah had performed with the layout. “Doesn’t it look perfect?” she asked. My knee jerk response was, “Well, with the exception of all those lines on my neck, I would say yes!”
Carol laughed then replied, “Isn’t it funny how our eyes always go to the imperfect in us? Nobody else would even notice.” And I think she’s spot on!
Now let’s be honest here, you just scrolled up and checked out the lines on my neck right? It’s ok, I would have too!
I tucked a note in my mind that we do that with much more than just our physical appearance and that’s just no bueno. (did I tell you I am also learning spanish? In fact – I am also celebrating today that according to duo lingo I just today moved from 5% to 6% fluency)
So my encouraging advice for today is this:
For every negative thought that you allow in your mind about yourself or another, counter it immediately with a positive.
That’s right. Slam it, smother it, drown it out with it, shout over it, surround it, infiltrate it – I’m sure you get the point – with a positive.
Commit to doing this for one full day. Hopefully you will become more aware of your inner thoughts, or your actual words – and notice an improvement in your countenance (I almost left the word continence there…. but decided to spare you)
Let me know how that goes.
I may have lots of lines on my neck, but I have pretty blue eyes.